A New Normal

While this past week has brought a flood of emotions, personally the way AFS handled a small issue to me back to square one, but I soon realized that none of you back home would want me to miss you to the point that I feel miserable.  It's a hard thing being thrown into somewhere that you have no clue whats going on.  I honestly felt like I was unprepared and have had a hard time coping.  I've admitted things that I would have never said before.  I am scared, I am not strong, I need help, I am just human.  Its taken a lot for me to say those things.  I have grown so much as a person in this month and a half.  Yesterday for the first time listening to class being taught in French sounded normal, I didn't understand it but it felt normal.  Life is hard sometimes, it's ok to be sad but to wallow in misery does nothing for anyone.  I've been blessed with other AFSers close to me, just this morning Zoey and I waved to each other out our window.  And while we might be a bit behind in the area of learning French, I would rather have my sanity an happiness then misery.  Honestly without them I'd be back in PA right now.  We've really started to buckle down to speak only French.  It's not easy but we have some awesome friends to help us. The world is so much grander than you can ever imagine, so much bigger and more amazing than anyone can fathom.